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When you write you can’t visualize a picture with your words as you do with your brushes. You write a sentence and they feel limp and lifeless as ever. The writings feel raw and sometimes even corny. Likewise happens when you try to talk your feelings out, your voice breaks and you get a burning lump in your throat, emotions take control and you are left with just the bitter words. 

You overthink for twenty minutes, cry for fifteen, and calm yourself for ten. 

You’re so used to being sad it’s a part of you now. You curl inside the blanket listening to “10 years of heartache” on Spotify. Repeating words they said and you said and they said over and over in your head. As you eat lunch, food refuses to pass down your throat and you stop.

You overthink for twenty minutes, cry for fifteen, and calm yourself for ten. 

Feeling all the feelings again for the 578544th time because not feeling anything would be so robotic. You sit to work with meetings and deadlines when the only thing you want to do is shut down.

You overthink for twenty minutes, cry for fifteen, and calm yourself for ten.

An attempt to create a picture without your paintbrush until your words are one with your feelings.

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